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There is stuff in my boobs and it's coming out. TMI???OH MY GGAAAWWWWWWWWDD ! Last after my shower I noticed my nipples looked weird and I started messing with them to see what was what. They've had this white stuff on the tips off and on for months now and I thought all along that my nipples were peeling skin because they were growing bigger. Snake nipples, brilliant. Anyways this stuff really didn't look like skin and I had just read in the baby book that this is about the time that the nips might start to leak colostrum. So. I squeezed one. And holy shit. HOLY SHIT OH MY GAAWWWDDD STUFF came out !!! OH MY GAWWD OHMYGOSH SHHHIIT !! Listen, I know this is perfectly normal and natural and it was going to happen sometime - but it's never happened before, nothing has ever came out of my nipples and it's STRANGE ok? It just is. It's amazing and curious and wild all at the same time and all I can do is keep staring at myself. And squeezing more because I'm a freakin weirdo and it's fascinating. I guess it's cool to know that they work. My boobs are functional. Who knew there were so many holes by the way? Holy damn yo ! I came rocketing out of the bathroom and marched into the living room to loudly announce to my unsuspecting husband that THERE IS SHIT COMING OUT OF MY BOOBS. He turned around to look at me like "Whaaa???" :P And then he wanted me to SHOW him and I turned all feet shuffle-y and shy and sat down and blushed like a teenager. I knew I couldn't say "no" and he's my husband and loves me and he should be able to share in this - SO - I sucked it up BIG TIME, blushed to the shade of purple, and showed him. *giggle* He thought it was cool. I thought I was going to have to go into this big long drawn out conversation about how it's not actually milk yet but the colostrum stuff and explain for an hour what that meant - but he already knew. "OHhh yeah de colostrum! We use to eat dat from de goats." *Blink* "What?" "The goats.""For real?" "The stuff that came before the baby goats were born? You ate it?" "Yeah, eet was good."*Blink**Blink*"Oh." "Well that's cool." Who freakin knew? At least we didn't have to have one of those translation/explanation conversations. Did I mention there is stuff coming out of my boobs? How long do I get to be surprised by this anyways? I think for a first time mom it must be like the first time a pube-age-boy jacks it and has stuff come out of his wang. It's got to be a pretty big surprise right? Like "WOW look what I can do!" "What IS that??" *snort* Who knows.
I suppose I'll show this to Daisy when she's much older and I want to write down and remember for her just how CRAZY I am about her moving around inside this stomach of mine. I love it, I can't get enough of it and I'm completely transfixed by the whole thing. She starts kicking and I'll pull up my shirt, yank down the maternity pant-nylon-part and stare at my stomach bounce and move and roll for as long as she'll amuse me. I gawk and I giggle and laugh out loud all by myself and smile and talk to her. I've lost it haven't I? I figure I'm a goner.The last couple of weeks she's started puuuuusshiing out with her feet or hands and I get a big ole bulge in my stomach for a moment. I'm sure you that've had babies know what I'm talking about. Ladies farther along than me tell me they can't WAIT to get their baby out because it's kicking their ribs, and while I've not got to that point yet, I can't imagine for even a moment wanting to get her out any time soon. Forget the pain and peeing all night long, fatigue ect. I really REALLY love having her inside! For all the crap that pregnancy has thrown at me I still find myself really liking it! So weird but true. Daisy you just hang out in there and do your thang, I'm totally cool with it. :)
A couple of weeks ago I was rudely introduced to the fact that I have a Sciatic nerve and just what it can DO to me if it's pissed off. It started off just a crappy dull pain running down from my butt cheek (honest to god, the cheek) to my ankle, but it's progressed since then to giving me these sharp STABBING, HORRIBLE pains in that previously happy ghetto butt cheek. The stabbing pains only happened a couple of times a day and the lesser pain running down my leg would give up after about 10 minutes or so, until yesterday. Yesterday made me re-think my stance on getting an epidural. If contractions and giving birth hurts WORSE (???? how is this possible????) than the crazy knife stabbing pains I put up with yesterday then I will damn well be getting an epidural. SCREW being natural and joining the ranks of natural birthing brave women. SCREW THAT. My leg buckled from beneath me at one point! I don't blame the leg, I'd give up too if I were it. Later in the day, the last two times it happened I honest to God involuntarily screamed out loud when it struck. I'm not one for being dramatic in that way but the yell came from inside me somewhere that I apparently have no control over. The lasting pain that runs down my leg stayed almost the whole day and I found myself limping. Sitting, standing, laying down, nothing helps, it's a nerve thing and I just have to wait for it to go away. One of the screaming-out-loud episodes happened in front of Chino and I was pretty embarrassed. He was so shocked he just stood there for a moment and stared at me :P before coming over to where I was to try and help. I writhed around and told him in between breaths that I was ok, and the baby was fine and that I'd explain in a moment or two. Bless him he massaged the cheek and the whole leg and it felt wonderful. I hope today is better, and it seems to be so far, we'll just see. Anybody have this nerve pain happen to them? Anything you found that would help at all? I'd love to hear any experience. :)
Yesterday Chino actually got to SEE Daisy moving around and kicking my belly. He's felt it but I've been waiting for weeks for him to be looking at the right time. I stare at my stomach ALL the time amused and happy watching her pound away, it's just so NEAT! His face really lit up and although all he had to say was "Cool" I know he was quite impressed by the look on his face. :)
I realized just today that when I walk all I can see of my feet are my toes poking out once in a while. If I'm cooking and I get say, spaghetti sauce, ALL over the bottom of my shirt on the part of my stomach that I can't see anymore? I might just walk around for a half day before anybody says anything. Nice.
I want to send out a little Thank You note here to my Step-Mom for sending me the cutest box of baby clothes! The ballerina onesie is SOOO cute! Chino thought it was adorable! :) I love the booties and everything else. The little hat is so sweet :) And the Ram, Awwwwww :) Thank You for thinking of me and thank you for sending something so far away, it was so nice of you and very much appreciated.
P.S. I had pictures of me in this post holding up a big sign that said "THANK YOU" but I looked so busted that I freaked out and took them off.
SO -
THANK YOU :)
There is stuff in my boobs and it's coming out. 
